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I’m becoming concerned here as I prefer to engage in the workings of machinery rather than the appearance of them. What lies below isn’t an accurate reflection of how things are. Representing my county online and being the top player in the team depicts the absence of those who count more so than show who is present.

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The Numbers

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A mere 26 years on, since I ran away from the responsibility of being Tournament Organizer at my home club, I’m back at it again. The difference is, this time its all on-line quickplay stuff, which is a damn site easier to do than club championships where more than half never even shown up once!

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2021

2020 was

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1258 games online

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2B0Y2E0

2020 got struck down by the most irksome of all maladies did it not? I much prefer natural disasters over pandemics personally…hopefully this one will piss off sooner rather than later…

Chesswise 2020 has been my best year ever because I altered my style of play significantly and play much more actively and directly. The principle reasons for that is it was both long overdue and the psychological impact of applying pressure is understated, and significantly so. I think that sub-2000 mistakes are a certainty and aplenty, and if you apply pressure they are inevitable almost. So crack the whip I do in order to watch my opponent fall apart. The real skill comes finding the right moment to do so, and that’s not so easy, anyway…

With our offline lives being rendered irrelevant almost, I spent the last 6 months almost online at all times and played some 1000-1500 games, which helped solidify that shift in style to something I am proud of. If every cloud does have a silver lining, then you could argue the sense of occasion which was lost when OTB chess stopped made much more room for a ‘play to win’ mentality to emerge. An altered mindset emerged from which I pushed home all the way, and with chess theory now creeping back into the fray, since the calibre of my opponents is noticeably higher, I should reach my peak next year, and that is where the climb begins…

Yes, most probably if I applied myself solidly for five years I could reach FM level or be thereabouts but I don’t think I will give it all that. Getting over 2000 should suffice methinks…

Do enjoy 2021…

Olcmarcus

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If your numbers are on the up and my grade is ‘improving’, as some would say, does that constitute progression or regression? Perhaps the question is a little vague and requires further qualification: what if I become concerned about my actual rating -which admittedly is artificially low- does wanting an impressive rating rank higher than playing contently with no real care over results? Do we start with what lies within us and work outwards or begin with what lies external to us -and depending upon the interpretation of that- work inwards to establish our own thoughts and feelings? Who calls the shots?

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The numbers

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…and so I sit solemnly in the eve of this cold winter’s day, alone in contemplation as I gaze into a pale blue sky. And within that contemplation, a lament that lies luminated by twilight and not the end of twilight. And there the embers burn: the process of unlearning yields a greater harvest than the process of learning burns away until it dies, strangled by the cold that comes across field. And why does this ‘acceptance of yours’ do that you may ask? For the very simple reason that unlearning consists of dialogue and self-correction for it is retrospective whereas the process of learning involves ill-gotten imperatives supported by the odd senseless, unreflective and over-simplified monologue. To err is human, yes indeed, to correct oneself is an indication that peer correction is no longer present, hence they burn so slowly for it is more drawn out, for if that be lost time, then lost time it be…

…and the light that burns half as bright burns half as long…

…and I cannot say how nor when nor can I say why or when but beyond the summer and autumn bluster I have taught myself what went missing in my play very early on is back and back to stay. It constituted a shift in style that went unnoticed and pushed me into more positional play before I gave up chess way back when. And the activity and directness with which I began only went missing until the process of unlearning and the persistence I pressed on with in those ungodly hours clustered above all that washed away below. It taught me that opponents crack under pressure, it taught me attacks on the king unnerves everyone, it taught me to never give up, and so I rediscovered the way forwards. Not consciously for it came about by itself…a long awaited return to the fold if you like. And it be this: active play, direct attacks, and only then gentle pressure with incorporated positional elements…with win followed by win followed by win…

…and the result is an enriched understanding of chess, sharpened thought processes, and a level of play above all others before, in sum I am playing by far the best chess of my life, and identity-conferring too, and with what’s planned soon to be scaled, I will reach my own summit. There is not much of that climb left now….and because of that: to sit alone on a soulless, blisteringly cold winter’s day is a subdued Nirvana…

…and time it waits for no man, my future it is revealed…

…and time it waits for no man, my fate is sealed…

Nirvana

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1148

This year, I have played 1148 games on line, 99/9% of which were played from July onwards, so that’s about 200 games a month…

…it’s reached the point where commentary is usually understood instantly and beyond the board I have a sharp brain, as a doctor recently told me.

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In reality -not cyberspace- me thinketh not!

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